Fate...

He never slows down

He won't turn around

He doesn't stop running

Into the still deep blue darkness

Of the dusk

I will never know, why the heck?!

Why the heck did I ever get there while

I'm stuck in this place for too long

18 years in a row

There are only 40 days left until Easter

And before you know it, life should've ended

In terrorism and complete dystopic

It's the end of the world...

 

Is anybody out there still?

I know some of you guys were still out there

It's not over, so let's make things right

I want to be on my own

He and I were in Seattle back then

And again life might have been different

From what reality should do the best it could be

Oh, great; I swear to Black Blazer's dad

I am literally the part of the soon-extended Flock

It's six guys, six girls and a dog named Total

After April 8

At the end of the XP lifeline

 

Let's move on with our lives

Onto the next season called spring...

We're still old friends up until the last minute

We're at least falling apart in separate ways

He'll come back to the East Coast

I'm stayin' on the Pacific Coast

By May, I'll wonder where did he went now

Did he stay at Coeur d'Alene and have fun?

Or did he go on the 67-day world tour with the band group of his cousins until Friday the 13th?

He'll be gone on April the 7th among them with one last kiss for now

He'll come back when I graduate

My last farewell tour was the Spring Tour

Oh how sad I will miss him so much

 

We see the whole city on the Space Needle at night

I'll remember the good times

He don't remember still

Like never been there before

About the instruments we both played

He did practiced bass guitar

While his cousins played the same instruments they did in the show

About mine

I played something classical - a Bb clarinet

It should be like Mia and Adam from the If I Stay 2-parter

Just about 23 days left of trying to recover the relationship into romantic interests

Better push this to self, good girls still find new attractive ones

But I take time finding a new one - for I found out that somebody is a football player

Like a intercepter, a linebacker, or a quarterback

 

The reminder told me to get the open-minder business out of the way

To try to find a way to get all of the stress out

And make room for the Lent period

For I know it's tough to push back where it belongs to the morning of

One week after I turn 18

We never woohooed, nor tried for a kid or more

That was very sad and ashamed on myself

I know I had come of age and already old enough for love

But where is the real love we had before the mid-2000s crisis?

I know the only way out of this world is my God!

Help me, God!

Save me from this millenial world I'm living!

It's so different now from what it looked like

That it's a fate...

I'm reaching out...

Touching...

now....