Wednesday, May 16, 2018

Am I Wrong?

Myth: today's youth group attenders are tomorrow's church leaders.
Reality: today's youth group attenders are tomorrow's unchurched.
Teenagers may be attending church events today, but they have little inclination to do so in the future.

That is very sad... plus chances are a third of gen y were actually "unchurched" as I looked up today's stats on the Internet. Don't you believe it? I have survived attendance in youth group! The last time I was there was playing Mario Kart on Switch in the game truck and then we get to hear the sermon about our identities in Christ. What changed to me was transforming from an ambitious musician to becoming a very virtuous mother one day. I don't think I am counted toward the unchurched future, though it seems bleak in my opinion. I am trying to hold still against the tide of the current before I have to question everything, and attempting to be a church leader for the young adults were very slim. It was very brief when they kept requesting me what to do and it is tiring me out sometimes. I heard speakers being concerned about the timing before in school, church, and online combined. Yes, I am not so great at speaking for an hour length, but I could preach full-steam ahead for as much as I thought it would, timewise it will take me up to a few hours at the maximum point. This makes me feel exhausted, but my brain is not so tired. I have more depth of thought than anyone could imagine and I am mentally throwing up more words being typed on a screen now. That is why I am a good intelligent person who knew better than that. My time will resume on summer solstice period.


Guess what happened after I left the youth group? I do NOT come out of the cult. Instead, I ended up in the main service with the older adults from their mid 30s up to 85ish. The maximum age was specifically 108 previously, and now I'm like what happened? Did it bend itself up? There was a curve going up and down yet to come! From what I experienced so far is they keep reacting to every other part of a sermon whether in shock, laughter, agreement, or praise! It is like a killer slant to my soul!!! Is it serious? C'mon what are you waiting for? Listen first and then you do the job yourselves. That is simple, try it! I do nod sometimes not in public since it is more of a humble reaction than that. Too many bulletin programs pile up one after another, and it is loading up more space at home. I am sick and tired of taking one home with me every week. I know what the events are coming up and I hear them!!! Agh! Those are the things I may not be attending due to schoolwork and whatnot. Sorry! It is not going to happen. I have to do it my own way like think outside the box. I have taken messages for a week and a half now, and yes: this is many times better than sitting around and doing nothing all week while waiting for the next sermon. It is called my warming up period in order to be prepared for Simone's commencement ceremony. I tried looking forward to Holy Week and I was so close to making out of the tunnel. It extended up to no point of reaching the other end and I am doomed now. As soon as I had my plan figured out because the last video of the road to revival wasn't there on the net, I wanted to get out into the field of bliss on time and never have to go back again. I am going to be free from my burden! So long, unwanted tasks! I have eighteen entries of my dark purple devo left to go and continuing God Calling onward on a daily basis for a year. The problem? I have to read Proverbs again for a week. Good news? I made it 16 chapters and 15 more to go. That is what I want to do right now because it is Wednesday, May 16. Five weeks left until we have to start Shepherd of the Hills. I cannot wait for summertime! Oh yeah!

Thursday, May 10, 2018

Update As of 6/26/2017

I now have a new smartphone in my hands. It's official! I can type on the go, so I don't have to wait any longer for an available computer in the usual desktop form. Thanks!!!

Tuesday, May 8, 2018

What Will Become of Them

I heard that some things I have known back in high school have come to a close, and it seems likely that people move on with their lives. I am telling you: they grew up so fast, they just left me behind. I know some people are into superheroes, sci-fi, and fantasy while others are into long-term current issues we have been shoved down our throats the past five decades since the counterculture revolution. Some have families now and others are indifferent but changed maturely from scratch. Stats have changed surprisingly for relevant reasons. From the time I have entered the Internet with real accounts, I was nothing but a late technological bloomer at 17 as a rising high school senior. When I am 22 and as a college student, I had the goodbyes to beloved parts I knew and cherished a few years earlier. The YA trend in movies came to a close with The Death Cure and I know all of the terrible infamousity I had in mind ends shortly afterward. Man! It was a long 12 years and two weeks of a horrible and painful, cringeworthy endurance to survive from start of something new to finally freed. I mean we, the high school class of 2014 went from East Wildcat tweeny preps to junior high Twihards to high school blood cat demons to college dominatrixes. Thank goodness, it is almost my turn now to shine as soon as we get out of college! I have a better story to tell. Something worth more than no actual plotline...

On the end note, there are more adventures to come, and I am so excited for the meetups of my own once when I had enough money to keep my own group maintained from falling. In other meetings, I would join on occasion since time was pretty much hasty for me. With discovering the nations on hold, I could take my time learning more about other countries via travel shows from the public station to get a bit of my writer research for locations. I am becoming more mature than I did from the establishment of this website, and still growing... one day I will visit the Emerald City Comic Con for my own panel. Lots of plans are still going on in my life, and I am trying to have more experiences as often as possible, but my parents won't let me. We will never know when will time tell itself... it depends on my determination.

From what I was trying to recognize is that new beginnings are starting to arise within the new year, and I am starting to realize this. Surrounded by so many losses, we do remember Daniel McCandless (I don't remember his last name properly - but one of the first to be added to the tributes section for the calendar year), Zellie (my dog), Billy Graham, the 17 victims of Douglasmen High including Aaron Fries, and more. That morning on Pi Day, we lost Stephen Hawkings. What I read from one of the blogs I subscribed to, the narrator said that she lost a high school friend and someone else in the month of February. Life changes... things have switched. This is just nothing but a long-term tragic start, and I'm having like 17 days of silence after the last words in the past year (sorry, it is two months and a day late to be honest): "Skye" and "Laura". Those were the names of the girls I newly kept that in mind, and I seriously missed out on creating and slaying resolutions in the month of January alone due to so much capable ignorance. Minor things were added to my life: disciplining myself financially and eating more nuts. What subtracted from my entire daily routine in January was a relationship with an animal in real life. The next morning, I missed The Broke and The Bookish so very much, they were such a good blog to me and I have learned the growing list of books that has to be read. It was too long for me to deal with, so that is why I liked the cover designs and everything. It has been five years since I first visited the website.

Before I go, I just started the year of peace after Easter. Man, it is a slow start all without some state of the union to begin with and there is more busyness of homework to do. Finally, after Good Friday, I officially counted down the days until Simone's graduation once again. Never lose track of time again! How did I do that? I figured out plans from May 6 and onward. I now accomplished 3 note-taking days and I still need 23 left to go besides Hope and Who Needs God Anyway?: the antipenultimate and penultimate messages to MAHA before Simone graduates. I have to make sure to do whatever else I can all throughout the rest of this school year, so... no rush, folks. I will be back after June 18.