Forever

How can I never forget the time I saw the world?

The realm outside the urban zone is like an ambient adventure.

I remember my long recovery from drama over the months' span,

It was very important to know all about things outside the fiction.

I sorta outgrew my nostalgic life as a nerd because...

Let's face it: I am not worthy to be known as shadhardblogger or whatevs.

Autism Awareness Day 2016 Post

Hey, guys! I do have some good and not-so-good news I've just heard about over spring break:

• The month of April is back for more of my thing, so we had a walk-a-thon for free at my very own hometown of Kirkland today that came with resource booths and the fun fair.
• Last night, I had a great time on an evening out for pizza (yum!), salad and board games.
• Hancock Fabrics will be closing in the month of June most likely near my home because of the Chapter 11 bankruptcy, and not only is it going out of business, but it happens within the other 184 stores nationwide depending on how much time is it going to stay open.
• Last week, 3 people got baptized, but 10 children are accepted by the LORD.
• I already had a surprise going through five stations and I realized that I need to know how to stay awake, watch and pray so I won't procrastinate ever again.
• I picked up some of the trash in my room to make more space.
• I paid $40.50 for the online test, but the grant already covered the tuition for this term.
• I need to think about the summer program, but you'll never know what's gonna happen to my plan quite yet.
• I had found my journal focusing on the upcoming book Where It All Began. And now, I'll resume whether I have to think about it.
• Sometimes, I have a lazy time, for I definitely slept in after staying up late at night. But the only productive thing for my mental health is I had read the first 22 chapters of Maximum Ride Episode IV: The Final Warning before I had noticed a hole in the beginning of chapter 23. I stopped right there, so I can't go back into it unless I have all of my library fines paid and the audiobook version needs to get checked out. So, from Yahoo! Answers by far, the results are in: still nothing. Anyways, Autism Awareness Month is officially here for the umpteenth time in a row and I will be able to know more about the truth of the origin of my disability and how it became so popular with the book Neurotribes: The Legacy of Autism and the Future of Neurodiversity by Steve Silberman.

Thank you for reading the special post and have a good day!

The American Idol Farewell Post

The creator Simon Fueller said that it's not the end of the road, but it could be reincarnated for a new generation - come to think of it.

Me: Dream on, it's not gonna last. Reality television competition for talent is a fad, for I know American Idol did a really, really, really good job of having to be the #1 thing in the TV charts for most of the 2000s, even though the audiences leave for football, I had not only won the hearts of who and where are they from, but some of them went away right after Idol, and others are already famous even before I was there for Radio Disney and all of the kiddie whatnot with pop culture galore. Although I really did grew up within the millennials, some of you went within yours and some of you is in between. And is it time already? I know some of you including me is getting jealous of a new generation, but some of you can make something fresh for them as if you think that's inspiring to create like say, how about the HSM remake for a deviantART fanfic that focuses on my generation on the other side of my native place at this time, but not limited to East High: Home of the Wildcats? (HINT: It's the same ol' school where Miyako attended in the days of Grease, but over 40 years later.) Or probably, you're inspired by Gravity Falls, Fish Hooks, Steven Universe and MLP: Friendship is Magic for an original webcomic. Maybe it's about something completely original from the upcoming public domain works starting in 2019. Looks like a wake-up call, believe me. I know I'm not ready yet to move on from fanfiction to pro-literature (original fiction for example), but I'm all ready for a new, new generation to pop out once when the two oldest people in the world passes on and I have an emotional feeling that we had grown up so fast, it feels like we had known them for a long time since we and/or they are first met for the first time in any stage whether it's either peer-related, a kid around a young adult, or it could be a general-aged adult over a high school kid. *teary-face*

Y'all know times have changed, right? When I was born, the flipphones, faxes, landline phones, printers are such good times and very perfect for an office setting. When I was growing up, I had my eyes attached to desktop computers as things evolve from start to finish - everybody had their cellphone, but not anyone else in this world, the iPhone popped up when I promoted from grade school to middle school, the Great Recession and the afterward had affected our family - we moved back, my three grandfathers died at a very unlucky age of 13, we tried to get the job, but for Mom, it did not work, so she was a stay-at-home parent. Dad had been a children's pastor at Bellevue Foursquare Church for nearly seven years, and I think we're hitting the longest record of where we worship - Eastside is where I've been for the first seven years and four and a half months of my life. During my super senior year in high school, my mom constantly tried to look for a job, and I think she had two part-time jobs in the end of 2015. At the end of 2009 (right in early November) and for the first half of the 2010s (up until the day after the Super Bowl 49), we had Comcast (now Xfinity) in which some people despise and it literally stayed within the level of our income. We had suffered long enough that we already paid $100 per month on cable, and it's the same ol' commercials that keeps popping up over and over again. And then, there's Verizon. We had paid $200 per month. Thankfully, we got rid of cable and switched it to just free digital air to save money, but we had a little more of our income, but not too much. Half of us had switched to Consumer Cellular, but today 60% is on CC and 40% of us is still on Verizon. For the most part on the half of the 2010s, we had something extra in our household - Dakota was there. But today, she's not here and it's been six months since she passed on from an unexpected brain seizure within a day. Phones have evolved as a rehash of the original iPhone and inserted an inner-face camera for selfies. Social media within hashtags had already been part of our daily lives, and I already had a blog since 2013! Yup, look at how things changed.

And now that American Idol is coming to an end, I just want to say, "Thank you for everything! It means a lot to me, I would've been there for season 14, but it's too late: I had school and stuff to do." Now that I tell you everything, places come and go. Businesses go out and went into the trend. Buildings keep changing over and over again from time to time. All things great and small - some last for a long time and some just don't. Two viruses popped up from early to recent in my lifetime - Ebola and Zika. In the 21st century, the awareness for my disability has grown in popularity and I'm very grateful that 1 in 68 people have autism. The most common thing is through boys, but my mom had ever seen the first autistic girl in her life - this is me! I will be the first ever autistic girl to write fanfiction about my Sonic franchise for deviantART, and that will be The Shadow Saga and its prequel Time Bomb. Did you know Chris-chan had his infamous Sonic franchise on so many webpages to boost the trend? It's Sonichu! He's a popular troll, and I'm literally just nothing but deviantART, Blogger and Wattpad. Anyways, a few watchers for deviantART within the username shadhardblogger, thank you for subscribing to me. A few of my friends at that website, thank you "soo" much for the deviations via the notifications. Yahoo! Answers had so many people to ask and answer, opinions matter and I am affected by knowing that certain things shoved down my throat, and I like what they don't like other's opinions, what they comment, and what they relate to the same opinion. A few, if not, probably hundreds answered my questions and I just wanna say "Thank you for my help! You guys totally appreciate my work, a few of you had said my name, and a rare amount of you are like trolls (e.g. the Yogi Bear orientation with my "goffik" ULF straightness) and so far: two votes for Mother-Air's Apprentice. Guys, you need just a bit more than that."

Since next week will be the last hit of my entire lifetime, I knew I really did looked back on my childhood in recent day and I had the songs stuck in my head for me to add into my upcoming soundtrack. Are you ready to see the cover? On a count of three, we look. Ready? 1... 2... 3!

I think to be honest is a rough draft cover. Like it's neon all around with a guitar in a black background. I'm thinking of the final draft cover.

I can't wait to see you when you definitely look forward to my remake arrangement. American Idol will be dearly missed.

June 11, 2002 - April 7, 2016

It Looks Like It's Spring Cleaning Season and I Was About to Work Hard on the Book Haul Review

So, come to think about it. I highlighted all of the stuff to work on and leaved out the ones that are completed, so I don't have to waste any further time reading and reading and listing them in my book list I've just read on my own, so anyways, I will never forget about the joys of being a real prep at Ault School which is a good thing, way better than the faker from East High (Prep by Curtis Sittenfeld). I will also never forget the book I was introduced to zombies (Boneshaker). I will never forget the double feature in two years' time between the beginning of Mad Science Institute and the zombie apocalypse. I will remember the time of trial and all the whatnot from the Deep South (Mockingbird Duology, Cage Bird). But there's more to come than I could only imagine, so I will be able to get back into reviewing books in order to make my post draft collection go empty on me. Anyways, it looks like we have more sunlight and more time to get the reviews going to catch up until I am officially good to go. Please be patient while I update the fundraiser post and work on the reviews as soon as possible as if time allows. Thank you, and have a great spring break! I'll see you when I come back.

And don't forget to check the book review page for any further updates!

How to Be in the Real World for Millenials

Have you attended IEP Senior English before? Did you know you have attended all of that technical stuff going on in your life waiting for creativity to happen in the end to come up with resolutions for next year? It would be a little ol' me, dealing with all of the growing up practice after I turn 18 and had the guardianship program taken care of by my parents. First things first - after you had all of your requirements for graduation taken care of, say you just have to start with the Job Skills Communications. That's a good thing for you to look up at the seven worst mistakes while on the job interview. Here they are*:

• bad posture
• bad handshake
• sweaty palms
• lack of eye contact
• fidgeting
• appear distracted or uninterested
• failing to smile

*Taken from 7 Worst Mistakes Job Seekers Make @ Business Insider on Yahoo!

You should be able to read this article to have a job in perfection. Also while in interview, you should:

• be able to have eye contact with a person
• think, do and act professional
• sit up straight
• feet flat
• have a nice, clean, neat, tidy resume in
• wear conversatively
• not have headphones
• think straight and ignore what you want on your company's building

For more information about everything wrong with the mistakes on the first half of the video and how you should do this on the other half of the video, go to The Enthusiasm Attitude under soft skills at www.dol.gov.

Keep in mind that you should be able to know that you're lazy, technologically competent, and need to face the real world. Think working hard as if you want food to survive and money to manage for personal finances. Be realistic!

See the Wait But Why post for more information of how your generation is like IRL.

The Coming of Age Had Passed and the General Age Decade Had Just Arrived

"Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you have imagined."

-Henry David Thoreau

Time went way faster than I thought it would, so this is the umpteenth post, but actually it is the 301st to be published. Happy belated milestone of 300 posts!

Did you know September 16 is the overused birth date, as well as January 1 is the overused death date? On the trend, either October 5 and 6 could be the next official birthday to be perfectly honest. My 20th birthday is coming up in one week and a half, so that means it's time to throw in the vacation spots during the decade of what could be the fate for the rest of my life.

Now I'll Tell You Everything About Star Wars in One Post

Keep in mind there is a backstory of how I got involved in one of the most popular movie franchises of all time. Something nevertheless expected before in your readership with my blog.

When I was twelve, back in Salem, Oregon, I remember the race in Tatooine from the Phantom Menace, following by all of the others and I remember becoming a sci-fi geek. I was very interested in the canon, but not the spin-offs until Star Wars: The Clone Wars came out in August 2008 to cinemas. I saw it on DVD and the follow-up series on television, later, recently on Netflix. We had several Star Wars nights at Kids Club and we have to know how to build a force field to become better citizens of the universe. It was awesomely exciting, but I had a blast. For the first nearly seventeen years of my life, Lucasfilms used to be owned by George Lucas before having to pass around to Disney. Three years later, the phenomenom for the galaxy far, far away had participated for the latest episode The Force Awakens and I saw it yesterday. It was exciting and so good, it connects things in my perspective to relate to events, characters and locations including Jakku. The plot is interesting, the effects are original like it came from the director of Star Trek (2009) - J. J. Abrams and I still can't wait for the sequel by May 26, 2017.

Thank you for reading and have a great day.

#seeamazing

This morning, we find out that Sesame Street had officially opened an autism education campaign on the news. Hopefully, my kids will be able to see Julia because the Henderson company had added her to the community. Julia is autistic, so she might be the friend and will represent those who were autistic, for future generations should treat them with respect, especially in grown-ups with autism. Some chances are they may be more than likely to appreciate the works on both fiction (the real way), fanfiction and nonfiction about the lives of the autistic. Chris-chan, for example, did Sonichu and after 5 years of trolls, he came back for Etsy. If you would like a new page, you can digitally donate $10 and he'll add you to the dedication page. Unfortunately, you get one chance on three issues, so he claimed he'll hit 50-100 issues of the saga of infamousy.

In my perspective, I would like to give you some support... the bazaar sale is coming soon on December 6, so if you're interested in the hats I've made, you're welcome to buy it so I can make money to take my time for whatever happens the most. Let me know what you think in the comments below, or if you have little kids, go to sesamestreet.org/autism for more information.

Listening: The Chronicles of Life and Death (full album) by GC
Reading: Dog Sense by John Bradshaw (just two more chapters left to go); (for over the weekend, in which I'm planning to read) Persepolis by Marjane Satrapi, Fahrenheit 451 by Ray Bradbury, I Know Why the Caged Bird Sings by Maya Angelou; (to be finished) Prep by Curtis Sittenfeld

Countdown to Opening Night of The Force Awakens: 56 Days

What are my plans for the rest of the week?

This is the schedule I figured it out (no dates in particular order):

• homework
• do Life Journal (if time spares for the remainder of days)
• knit more hats (wrap-up the red thick yarn and start on Chenile!Forest adult hat, connect the ends to homespun!Cherry Blossom and homespun!Ocean yarns, throw in Chenile!Stone yarn on the adult hat loom)
• finish Dog Sense
• continue Where It All Began
• do read banned books over the weekend for review (finish Prep)
• print out the first 16 pages of my comic adaptation

That's all I have to know how to beat the clock!

Here's one song I didn't forget to think about from this past year, enjoy:

Hope you enjoyed it? Have a great rest of the week!

RIP Dakota

April 2, 2006 - October 4, 2015
Time of Death: 4:23 P.M. PST

This morning, Dakota (the yellow lab retriever) was fine, but by midmorning, she's having a seizure, so we prayed and... we tried! It's no use... I'm sorry about her last day of her life. She would've been alive on that day. Man, how I miss her. *sniffle*

I remember like it was yesterday, back in eighth grade, Dakota came on Lauren's 12th birthday to be the newest member of our family, but now, she's gone and over with. I remember feeding her apple cores when I'm done with the apple and I remember her massive farts. I still remember her barking and howling, and she was a good buddy of Zellie (age 12 if you don't know her - her birthday is October 2, 2003, and she's an English Springer Spaniel).

We used to go on the walks together and it was fun, and so do family vacations. I don't know what to remember, looking back, she sometimes misbehaved. Dakota will be missed, may she rest in peace.
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Here's a photo of her while she was still alive:

Don't Do This or That When Xfinity or Something Owes You a Bill

This is a funny collection of commercials from DirecTV, you'll LOL at this! Enjoy.

Happy Friday and have a great weekend! Hope you enjoyed it? Please comment down below and don't forget to subscribe @ shadhardblogger.deviantart.com or my YouTube channel for the up-and-coming vlog.

Happy October!

Happy October to you, because well... here's an interesting fact. Enjoy!

 

 

Hope you enjoyed this 60 second ad? Have an awesome weekend, and don't forget to comment down below.

I'm So Stressed and Depressed

WHY?! Why did I not read before class? I procrastinate. That's how...

Get it?

Note to self: drink your "invigorating elixir" aka Focus Vitamin Water (kiwi-strawberry) colored prep pink, so that way, you should read before class - please.

Friday Night Out

Dear online diary,

Today is what I've called it the TXT day of everything. I declare the national texting day as September 18 of every single year. I could tell you that the concert is worth having the fun of becoming more spiritually refreshed and you could see the dark lights, the music I've sometimes never heard before is what is fresh in my mind and also, we got to know each other before. So a 10/10 is probably the best night out ever... never had I been to a concert with my friends before, but oh well. I guess it's alright.

 

All of the Conflict Schedule Drama! (In Other Words: Fall Open House Gave Me the Time Management Issues)

Dear online diary,

Mother suggested that leadership class is a great idea to me to handle with, but Dad said I cannot go to leadership class until second or third year in college. I might not count for this school year or two, but I have to wait until I turn 21 in order to let it happen in a couple years. I have to accept work and school as if it were even, and not to be overweighed by whatever conflicts happen... clubs: always stressing me out and it took like forever to let the school year to end (which is crazy). I have to commit leadership on my own purpose to not only will the student affair requirement have to deny, but also, I will miss out on all of the college whatnot by itself. I already read "Secrets About Guys - Secrets That Shouldn't Be Secret" by Grace Dove before, and I have yet to read "Were You Raised by Wolves? And Seven Other Crucial Questions to Ask the One You Just Might Marry" by Toben Heim as part of my very own Love Quest reading curriculum.

In prior experience, I had enjoyed leadership classes in youth group for two courses in one year. I did not take any of the leadership classes in formal education, which it's okay. Not everybody gets to be the leader until the next generation or two rises. I do have to be responsible for the schedule, but let's say it should be a priority and not something that's left behind in the dust, so some 2-year old gets to throw in some crayons to doodle on the clean sheet of paper with boring blocks of text for business and let the parents feel stressed out, for they need to get a life by simply ordering adult coloring books from Amazon and reprint some text to store up high for the very next morning. My brain is just lazy to change plans... who cares about interest?! Nobody gets to be involved in any of the clubs. Thank God! They had their priorities straightened out because of homework, classes and stuff.

My plan for the future: I will start my very own blogger's club brought to you by banned and challenged books, bad fanfiction, the blogs and vlogs we love (e.g. Wagner Bunch, Vlog Brothers), and the infamous blog of all time: right here and right now! Everybody has to get involved by simply... let's say you sign up for Google, take Blogger as part of your day and literally do your blog by yourself on an often basis! Going to Blogger in Google for the first time is easy and nothing less.

Also, for the bloggers' club, we love to critique DCOMs starting from HSM and all the way up to Radio Rebel because these things are for preps and we are not all girly useless. We're equal, MCR rocks and we love to react to stuff online. Other than that, thank pop culture (btw, Ms. America) for the suggestions for the continuation of the plot for Time Bomb. And I am all ready to see Miss World livestream on desktop mode by December 19, 2015 (if you don't have cable)! I will be prepared to watch every single Hannah Montana, every single Toddlers & Tiaras and every single 19 Kids and Counting ever made in order all-in-one. As I have yet to critique the entire HSM trilogy, I still want to critique Spy Kids: The Complete Saga (because I'm not looking forward to the fourth installment - thank the LORD, I did not get to see this after all of these last four years, for I am too old for the 2000s gadgets galore from the one and only Mr. Roger Rodriguez!). I better have the three lists of episodes prepared for checking it all off by black pen for simply printing off of the Internet, just so to get on with it until the end. Oh, surprises are surprises. Don't you just love to be like a true shadhardblogger? You don't have to be the next Tara Way!

If you want to be my follower, please do subscribe to my DeviantArt profile or like us on Google+. I would love to read comments down below and I will have the feedback taken care of, so thank you all for reading and here's one more thing before you go!

You guys have an awesome, splendid, amazing, superb, extraordinary day, night, weekend, whatever happens at anytime and anywhere for you and I'll talk to you in the next post. Kudos! :)

9/11 Chill Out Post (Why Buy the Autism Speaks Products Anywhere Else?!)

Welcome back, everyone! I am back from ASN Orientation... so I give you the bad news: the auditioning for me will wait until Tuesday because the auditioner was sick and she'll have to get well soon. But the good news is that I'm all jingled up for the bazaar sale preparations by simply drinking the peppermint mocha. Is it too early for the holidays? I don't think so, you still got plenty of time for holiday shopping - you don't have to wait until Black Friday. Go to www.amazon.com now to shop for holiday gifts, whether it's for your spouse, your parents, your children or for your friends and co-workers! On the Autism Speaks Merchandice E-Shop, I had just found the snowflake wrapping paper. When it says "holiday and birthday", both days take place in the winter - December 25 (Christmas Day) and my birthday (January 21). It's personally perfect! You should see this for yourself in the link below, and I highly recommend you can buy it if your birthday is in the wintertime.

http://shop.autismspeaks.org/snowflake-wrapping-paper

Another thing to look at if you're intrested in writing some thoughts, try for a special physical copy to own today.

http://shop.autismspeaks.org/autism-speaks-journal

If you look for the T-Shirts to make on your own other than the official company already taken care of, I suggest you can go to customink.com.

If you look for smartphone cases and more to customize, now it's the time to visit @ caseable.com.

That's all we have for now.

Something Much of the Difference Between the Medical and Social Models

The difference between the medical model and social model is that there's the contrast of normalcy and acceptance. Normalcy means trying to act like the able-bodied people from most of worldwide, while acceptance is support and awareness of the neurodiversity. Flaws are in the medical perspective, it was meant to improve the weakness while in social justice, it was defined as if nobody's a Mary-Sue or a Gary-Sue, but rather, everyone's a Lammily Sue to be perfectly honest. A perfect world in the medical perspective is people, having long ways to go from the tip of the iceberg, trying to add more information, and inventing new technology as well as coming up with their own terms. A perfect world in the social model is to accept everybody, even the LGBT, but anyways, I really don't care about the six-colored rainbow flag and everything that's against the rules of God the Trinity. I got it all written down by far in my creative expositional book called "Where It All Began".

Well, it's 'nuff said! Stay tuned for the Good Charlotte song I remember as a child.

You guys do have an awesome, splendid, amazing, superb, extraordinary day, and I'll talk to you whether I come up with or something. Kudos! :)

Why We Love Blogging (And You Should, Too!)

1. it's fun
2. the imagination has endless possibilities
3. there's no worries about the stress
4. it takes time whether the posts has to
5. if stuck, you should come back if you feel like having any details in order to tell the truth and be honest with respect
6. it depends on whenever you feel like having to blog about thoughts for the day or two
7. we vlog (it's okay to record like a diary of your life from the digital camera or on the phone)
8. we post images for Wordless Wednesdays and more
9. we do post songs we like
10. we critique movies and you listen
11. we recall on our lives first thing after you go start the first one
12. we review books
13. we love to create stories
14. we comment about name suggestions and other things
15. we create our own images and do not own others' images
16. HAVE FUN! :)

Have an awesome day, and remember this song from my childhood?

Do what you wanna do with your blog from your own heart.

I Thought I Stopped Living in the Angry Days

Gosh, stress is kinda moodier yesterday and I just can't audition for the Worship Group until Friday. It's okay... I was somewhat emotional and my heart was not ready yet because all I have to do is to put distractions aside (in which I really did it in one day and counting), but still, last night, I turned in Assignment 1 online. It talks about my autism backstory and my thoughts for two articles: the "sneak preview" of NeuroTribes in the blindness of having me as Elsa being locked away in the room and everyone else with autism as lost children, or those suffered from disease and sickness, or those who were taken away to wolves and pumas; altogether they are all myths of A-U-T-I-S-M! I learned that Asperger's (ASD) was named after Hans Asperger, an Austrian clinician. Leo Kanner on the other hand, studied those who severely suffered from the condition of autism. The other article talks about the history of autism, from the moment the word "autism" was coined in 1908 by a psychiatrist named Eugen Bleuler to the '70s and '80s where it has become better well-known in knowledge to even the 2010s where today's ratio is that 1 in 68 people have autism.

I know that I got to know my disability a bit better, but other than that, I am a lifelong learner for whatever happens.

So I'm sorry for the inconvenience, here's something you enjoy! I hope this inspires the post for the day...

I don't own the pic! The Shadow Saga of mine and everything in the works of shadhardblogger fully supports this! #autismawarenes #autismsociety #autismribbonlogo

I am depressed yesterday... I'm really not okay!

Anyways, I felt better today. You have a great day! :)

Hey! I'm Back from the Summer Vacation

Sorry about over the month's hiatus, because I already got distracted due to family activities, one last time @ VBS and all of that jazz. I had lived in these angry days... just hold on for a sec:

See? That's stress when it comes to music.

Anyways, look on the bright side Nat: you've got college ahead of you - there's alot of new people you meet, and then, you got some questions, so you want answers in class times.

But however, when independence is just on the horizon, I have to be better prepared for whatever happens: I just want to turn in Dog Sense by John Bradshaw after reading it: over 300 pages of dog exposition plus about 17 pages of notes in the back, so I can get going with Banned Books Week in participation to have the sake of freedom come fight censorship and "parental advisory nostalgia shenanigans".

Just literally, I'll note to you when I need to:

• The college bookstore will re-open after Labor Day
• ASN Orientation will take place Sept. 8-11 @ 1-5 pm on N209
• Open House will take place on September 15 @ 10 am - 2 pm, outdoors next to the Student Union Building in the Fountain Courtyard
• Fall Quarter starts on Sept. 21
• Classes in my perspective begins Sept. 22
• Work MWF and School (college) TueTh (in Fall Quarter of 2015)

You have a great Labor Day weekend and I will talk to you whether I post. BYE! :)

Listening to: 91.3 FM KBCS