Thursday, November 15, 2018


Uh, hello folks. Are you in yet?! This is me, Natalie Marrujo. Can you hear me? This blog is rebooting... just give me a second, please. *looks for physical journals on a crazy pile*
One hour later...
Hey, I found them. Now, this is a message from solely me and me alone to you: If you're listening to this, then the worst has happened... you need to know the truth. The signs of a new world order are not just coming, they already have for the past half-century. Welcome to the deep state, folks.
In my imaginary timeline, the deep state bureaucracy planned to shut down the research facility of a British college in the year 2012. They had successfully ceased all of the research and imprisoned all who know about you. Less than 9.5 years ago, the Black Comet returned. They plan to harness its powers to destroy this planet! The only way to stop them was to develop a way to use the very power they intended to use against them. It's up to YOU and only YOU can stop them! No, not you readers. You get yourself ready for the eye-opening account of my written life as in a redo over the OG 2013-14 school year when it was first established except... more detailed. Therefore, this is indeed very self-explanatory. A 24-day advent calendar of selected entries ranging from 2014 to now will be uploaded in the month of December, following by a new prologue on December 31. Remember: a new prologue was already written in another person's words, so I don't own anything that has to be written by someone else. All goes to its respectful owners. Two short stories coming soon...

Thursday, November 1, 2018

Counting Down Until The Journal Entries Are Exposed to the Public: Two Months Left

I haven't done as much media-like reviews as I was used to when the blog is back in its own heyday around the time Frozen was overrated. 18-year old me was like, "Duh, it's 2014, and I graduated from high school with my peers, so I know for sure I'm going to Bellevue College afterward." And now, look what happened after the events of June 13, 2014: I spent an entire gap year in high school still as a super senior student and I haven't technically got out of the government school system until June 16, 2015 when I finally came out of the IEP cult. 3 years into Bellevue College, and I have discovered myself to not look the same way again as it did back in high school. I am still trying to figure out about planning ahead of time outside the academic realm like going on the trips outside the house for as long as it stays local, and I'm staying in-country until marriage, so I could go to Canada on the honeymoon (told ya I had never been there alive, so I wasn't even born yet). Anyways, I came up with a plan to reveal what really happened over the last bit of summer and into autumn and up, so I have to call the red-violet flowery journal "Season 1". Five years has been a huge period of figuring things out until I have arranged things by volume. By the way, I have to throw in the pre-season bits here and there over the holiday season leading up to the real thing you have been concerned about what the heck is going on with my life as of right now. I was shamelessly self-promoted, but now I'll show you what real-life is actually like, so you will NEVER have to find it elsewhere whether it is in the TV shows or movies. If you dislike or hate reality television, please conduct yourselves and be mature like a total grown-up. Have an open mindset, not a closed mindset. 'Nuff said.

Wednesday, October 24, 2018

Update Time Coming Up...

I got a journal from Goodwill two and a half months ago and I am going to update them off-screen, so you don't have to read my entries for a very long time because... SPOILERS!!! These took place from the time I just finished The Indwelling up until now (I'm currently reading Sea-Wolf and watching 18 Kids and Counting Part 1) and still ongoing. I know Ms. Esselborn wrote the beginning bit (focuses on herself for around a year - originally written in the time I was at the abrupt end of elementary school until the time I was nearing the end of sixth grade in middle school, but this time it was from her perspective when she moved from 8th to 9th grade) and two short stories: 1. a DNF work (probably written at some point before she got tired of writing it) and 2. a finished headcanon fic (written on June 24, 2013) before she donated it. Newsflash: I NEVER read The Diary of Anne Frank, the Inkheart trilogy (the movie itself came out when I was in seventh grade, so it is a "did not see" before), and Twilight (it sucks since late 2005 at the time of first publication of the first volume; I was in fourth grade back then and still got a fond interest in the Sonic series at the time). Those are the list of works she had mentioned. Also, with the Transformers movie, I've seen the first and second ones when I was younger. I never got a chance to see the rest due to Michael Bay being credited big time. What a loser! Plus, I'd seen the TMNT 2014 film. It's a completely different story from the 2007 CGI version as a fifth grader. With the 2019 Sonic film coming on the way to the cinema, I'd better publish my fanfic I started at the end of 2013 on at the same day it was to be released. I'm expecting more comments since nothing worked out on deviantART, nor on Tumblr.

With consistency, I felt like I have an urge to successfully complete whatever I have started years ago like reading scriptures from cover to cover for the first time ever. Everyone, you should pick up where you have left off at, not start over from the beginning. See? Is restarting a big mistake to you? Here is the list of bookish series I have completed from earlier:
  • Percy Jackson and the Olympians (2005-09; read over the second semester of sophomore year of high school in 2012)
  • If I Stay 2-Parter (2009-11; started in 2012 as a junior of high school, finished in 2014 as a 12th grader)
  • Stargirl (2000-07; started in 2013 as a junior of high school, finished in 2017 as an incoming 3rd-year student of Bellevue College)
  • Persepolis (2003-04; binge-read it in 2015 as a first-year student of Bellevue College)
And now, planning ahead of time. Note: these are all taken from Google Keep as I have listed out to be announced publicly.
  • Scott Pilgrim (mid-to-late 2000s; issue 4 and up)
  • Maximum Ride (2005-12, 2015; Episode 5: Waterwings and up)
  • Uglies (2005-08; Pretties and up) (to be in progress)
  • Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants (2001-11; Second Summer of Sisterhood and up) (to be in progress after Pretties)
  • The Selection (2012-16; The One and up)
  • The Chronicles of Narnia (1950s; Prince Caspian and up)
  • fairy tales (19th century - interpreted by Grimm and Andersen; sorta over halfway there?)
  • Middle-Earth franchise (do the LOTR trilogy (1954-55))
  • The Merlin trilogy (1998-2000; book 2 and 3 are up for Amazon)
  • Saga (2012-present; volume 8 is now up and running for rental usage)
  • Blood Rose Rebellion (2017-present; Lost Conspiracy is available for rent)
  • Left Behind (1995-2007; starting with The Remnant (volume #13 in chronological order) - hopefully will get the last quarter of the series all done by the end of 2018)
I may or may not slay the goals themselves because it depends on how much school workload I have to accomplish, thus delaying and denying the New Year's Resolutions until the end of every single school year where I spent the summers catching up with what I am currently reading and watching at the time plus goals to become the new me to work on. Being consistent is my 2018 goal, though it came around five and a half months too late ahead of schedule and it is better to finish yet...

A new block has just arrived... entries from the journal coming soon: January 1, 2019 (new updates, one entry everyday).

Tuesday, October 9, 2018

5 years later...

It has been half a decade since the blog is established. Let's celebrate the milestone with before and after facts. I an sorry this post is late for the upload due to the special sendoff vacation. And again, sorry for a month more than it is scheduled. Here are my five befores and five afters - one fact per year in each side - while on the blog:

I went to JHS as a twelfth grader
I am reading Moby Dick while reviewing several books in the warmer months.
I don't have many social media accounts.
I barely ordered online.
I am self-employed.

I am a fourth-year student at Bellevue College and trying to accomplish a college degree.
I am taking a break from reading due to homework and other situations to deal with.
I did not have Pinterest, Instagram, or snapchat.
I got some things from online - lots of books, yarn, two lipbalms and one set of magnetic bookmarks - yet I had an only "buy-online-pick-up-in-store" purchase: a textbook from the college bookstore.
I have a connections internship and still making up hours to be acceptable for academic internships by next spring.

That's all for a while. Thank you for reading and I can't wait to tell you in the next post. Bye!

Tuesday, June 19, 2018

NOT Forever (I'm Back from the Break!)

"Tomorrow is closer. Today is here."
- Daniel Elijah Stewart

Hey, guys. What is up? I just got back from school that today is officially the establishment of summer break. Whew! I'm all caught up with the side notes and homework was just long, it chewed up my free time a lot like... ever. It was coffee that lowered my overall GPA, and it was the insanity that kept me laughing a lot at. My sister had just graduated from high school and is going to college next year. I cannot wait until she leaves us behind. Man, how will I miss her so much.

And you know what's more worse than that? I am officially graduating a year later than everyone else about the same age as mine since I will leave college with those who already had the gap year before being received bachelor's. I'm no educational fundie! Wah-wah... I'll end up having an associate's degree instead. My educational pace made no sense whatsoever when it comes to higher education itself due to the fact that I have to deal with all of the prerequisites of math and English and that I will not be able to go to another university after graduation. Sorry. My parents said that I will get a job instead, which is a big bummer and I don't wanna work outside the home. I have a self-employed business to run and will officially stick with the plan of my own for as long as it complies with the state law. Meaning I will never be able to have a boss, nor meet up with the co-workers. Instead, it was just me 100%. I am staying local and always will.

But then... it happened when one day, word found out that I was going to EWU @ BC in the year 2020 for children's studies or interdisciplinary studies degree. I was glad I get to be a mother one day I thought to myself since an advisor said I will teach small kids simple math. If I were to take children's studies, that means I will end up becoming a numerical instructor for early elementary and preschool kids of the next generation, which is a different route than what most professional applied mathematicians have gone through the years of training beyond Calculus, Statistics, and Math in Society combined. I am passing down the knowledge of what I knew as a child to the generation after me. I will be some elementary school teacher in a setting separate from what most have suffered after the events of the widespread homo agenda to grade schools. Idealistically, it is gonna be a private school and I will make lots of money from parents paying for the tuition I recommended. Boy, I will be a rich girl!!! MUAHAHAHAHAHA! Moving on...

Searching for internships, I will do it once when I will be at the Alyssa Burnett Life Center until I find one for the application, interviewing, and hopefully acceptance. But the problem? I don't have long-term volunteering periods mom said. I knew I was too busy with my scheduling, though I was more of a hobby person and less dedicated to an entire community. Man, I was selfish about myself first as if it was me time 24/7. Too many videos I watched made me more understandable about my career as a creator rather than just spectating like everyone else. When I went to expositionary class, I was required to feel more constructively clear though I did my best at it. Now that I am fleshing the positive inside me, I was surprised where it headed off to. I should have seen the best of the best, even the most well-known I already saw as a kid. I loved these reasons why I want to make a comic version of my story I made up four years earlier as a 12th grader. I am so proud of what I have accomplished! It is a dream come true, thank you Jesus!!! Surprisingly, I got a text message saying that I will start an internship again on Friday afternoons starting June 8. Wow, time is going fast.

I am leaving to go to Spokane and Walla Walla with family on summer solstice period beginning tomorrow. I was excited to visit places, but first the links if you are interested in going:

I potentially have to make plans to visit Asheville, NC in summer 2019, but life is short. I have more destinations on my list that I cannot describe to you right now since I am super busy with the things I was suggested to get it done like cleaning up the house and setting up my business to finally run. I have to help my mother to make all of her wishes happen during this time of the year and my reading slump just came back to me after reading The Lady in the Attic by Tara Randel. It has been seven whole school years since Facing the Lions and Eragon combined. I was proud of all of my productive mental work I have accomplished a lot, but my fanfic writing? I suck more at it if I keep going further than wanted, and all the excessive details kept getting me exhausted from happening. With expositionary writing, I should have looked back on the handouts for references dedicated to something other than the story itself in general. I cannot wait to read Assassins and other stuff on my to-do list. What else is new? Church picnic, grandma's birthday, camping trip to Baker Lake, summer BBQ, 7/11 slushie event, passing water bottles to community; nothing is entirely new under the sun as so many people do travel a lot and even some migrate to another country for a new life. Those planning to be lifelong permanent missionaries overseas, bon voyage!

It has been three years already since coming out of high school a year and three days late. I was supposed to graduate on time with bachelor's on June 15 (which is last Friday), so I should have gotten a full-time paid job by now. Man, how lazy and slow I am! Ugh... I don't wanna fall victim to the growing flexible crowd who were already reluctant enough to finish school. They got their lives messed up, and I have it all straightened out. Instead of giving a year to God and Jesus after EWU @ BC commencement, I just wanna spend my last year of college on a very successful courtship with the one I will spend the rest of my entire life with IRL to marry afterward. My homemaking skills were below average since I spent my childhood making cookies every half of the week, did a few sewing projects as an adolescent, and in the last five years of my life were spent loom-knitting over a hundred hats in total. Also, I frequently made popcorn, coffee, and sandwiches. I was required to do chores more than I could ever imagine since I was being told that I was gonna be a mother one day. I feel like I should start doing it diligently as best as I can without some unneeded interruption whereas I was preoccupied with the things I am too attached to. I am more responsible now than I did two to three years earlier, so that makes sense that the lessons I learned made me feel stronger. As an adult, I feel confident to be an independent person. This is who I am.

As a final warning, I thought millennials were born on the following dates 9/1/1981-8/31/2000. But no... I really do not know that I was gonna be the top ender of what was the generation more worse than the past one. 1. We all get sucked into the HSM nonsense as kids. 2. We already have the latest technology since 2012. 3. I do NOT remember 9/11 originally because I was ONLY in kindergarten. I didn't learn about the event until SIXTH grade. You know what is called? iGeneration. Geez... I am so jealous of them very much, they do gonna suck 2 years from now. Those born after 1995 are much more likely to experience mental health issues than their millennial predecessors like echo boomers for example. I do have my permanent mental health issue since I was a tot, so my disability has caused cons more than my peers such as social isolation, lack of eye contact, feeling depressed, and brief suicidal attempts. Otherwise, I was a decent person who was one of the first iGen voters to vote for one of the oldest boomers in the world. I was so thankful I have learned lessons from not only the older people, but also from people who were about the last generation than newly mine according to some sociologists. I will rather pay $77 per month on Patreon services to make some of the Gen Y audience feel better about themselves before it is too late since the latest superhero flicks in the past few years since secondary school are all overrated. No, the last graphic novel I read was volume seven of Saga. That's it! End of story. Recently, I saw Guardians of the Galaxy the entire time, but never have I ever saw the sequel before because I was somehow getting caught up with everyone else when it comes to shows and movies. I can't watch Guardians of the Galaxy Volume 2 without having to read the Heroes of Olympus saga full-time.

*sigh* I do not know what to say any further, so yeah... Thanks for reading, and I will see you next time whether I post. Bye!

Wednesday, May 16, 2018

Am I Wrong?

Myth: today's youth group attenders are tomorrow's church leaders.
Reality: today's youth group attenders are tomorrow's unchurched.
Teenagers may be attending church events today, but they have little inclination to do so in the future.

That is very sad... plus chances are a third of gen y were actually "unchurched" as I looked up today's stats on the Internet. Don't you believe it? I have survived attendance in youth group! The last time I was there was playing Mario Kart on Switch in the game truck and then we get to hear the sermon about our identities in Christ. What changed to me was transforming from an ambitious musician to becoming a very virtuous mother one day. I don't think I am counted toward the unchurched future, though it seems bleak in my opinion. I am trying to hold still against the tide of the current before I have to question everything, and attempting to be a church leader for the young adults were very slim. It was very brief when they kept requesting me what to do and it is tiring me out sometimes. I heard speakers being concerned about the timing before in school, church, and online combined. Yes, I am not so great at speaking for an hour length, but I could preach full-steam ahead for as much as I thought it would, timewise it will take me up to a few hours at the maximum point. This makes me feel exhausted, but my brain is not so tired. I have more depth of thought than anyone could imagine and I am mentally throwing up more words being typed on a screen now. That is why I am a good intelligent person who knew better than that. My time will resume on summer solstice period.

Guess what happened after I left the youth group? I do NOT come out of the cult. Instead, I ended up in the main service with the older adults from their mid 30s up to 85ish. The maximum age was specifically 108 previously, and now I'm like what happened? Did it bend itself up? There was a curve going up and down yet to come! From what I experienced so far is they keep reacting to every other part of a sermon whether in shock, laughter, agreement, or praise! It is like a killer slant to my soul!!! Is it serious? C'mon what are you waiting for? Listen first and then you do the job yourselves. That is simple, try it! I do nod sometimes not in public since it is more of a humble reaction than that. Too many bulletin programs pile up one after another, and it is loading up more space at home. I am sick and tired of taking one home with me every week. I know what the events are coming up and I hear them!!! Agh! Those are the things I may not be attending due to schoolwork and whatnot. Sorry! It is not going to happen. I have to do it my own way like think outside the box. I have taken messages for a week and a half now, and yes: this is many times better than sitting around and doing nothing all week while waiting for the next sermon. It is called my warming up period in order to be prepared for Simone's commencement ceremony. I tried looking forward to Holy Week and I was so close to making out of the tunnel. It extended up to no point of reaching the other end and I am doomed now. As soon as I had my plan figured out because the last video of the road to revival wasn't there on the net, I wanted to get out into the field of bliss on time and never have to go back again. I am going to be free from my burden! So long, unwanted tasks! I have eighteen entries of my dark purple devo left to go and continuing God Calling onward on a daily basis for a year. The problem? I have to read Proverbs again for a week. Good news? I made it 16 chapters and 15 more to go. That is what I want to do right now because it is Wednesday, May 16. Five weeks left until we have to start Shepherd of the Hills. I cannot wait for summertime! Oh yeah!

Thursday, May 10, 2018

Update As of 6/26/2017

I now have a new smartphone in my hands. It's official! I can type on the go, so I don't have to wait any longer for an available computer in the usual desktop form. Thanks!!!